Here I am, left to my own devices.

I have lived in the BDSM lifestyle for over 15 years in one way or another.  The last 10 years have been spent with my ex-Master/husband.  I do not regret the life we lived, but I am glad to be done with the relationship.   It was a toxic relationship for us both.

This is me, trying to reclaim myself.   This is my opportunity to redefine who I am, to learn what submission is to me and what I expect and desire in a relationship.  I’m not in any hurry to be in one.  I need to learn to be a family of three and to be healthy with myself before I can take that step.

This blog is my space to post my thoughts, my experiences and my life in general.  Some will be related to BDSM, some will be related to my children, to myself, to books – whatever it is I find the need to make note of or desire to share with the world at large.  I will do my best not to censure myself, but to remain dignified and tactful as I speak my truth.


Learn to love yourself first, instead of loving the idea of other people loving you.”